August 25, 2009:
I keep meaning to start my journal here and
other things keep coming up. I meant to start with something
that was more explanatory about what's going on in my life instead
of just diving in with the day to day randomness, but I just can't
spare the time, so day to day randomness is what you're going to
get. I'll try to use the titled journal entries at the top of
my list to get people caught up later on when I have more time or at
least am more used to this routine.
I have been wretchedly, miserably tired
lately. Worn out. Normally the fatigue doesn't bother me
that much, but I'm back to not being able to stay awake more than a
couple of hours at a time, and when I am awake I'll just sit and
stare into space and try to focus. If you're a person that I
normally call and I haven't been calling you, this is why. I'm
sure it will pass... it's probably just allergies or anemia or
something, I haven't been eating a very balanced diet lately.
They should add iron to ramen noodles. I've been taking some
iron lately, just in case.
Unfortunately there were some major chores
that I had to get done today whether I was fatigued or not.
I've been putting off a lot of house cleaning for too long. I
don't mind if my living space is a little (or a lot, heh) messy, but
the animals need a clean place to be, so today I cleaned the
aquarium, the chinchilla cages, the litter boxes (that's daily so
I'm not sure it matters) and the fox kennel. The fox has an
ear infection (she's prone to them, her ears are so huge) and tends
to rub her ear on everything, so I'm trying to get the rest of the
apartment disinfected as well.
On top of that I decided that I couldn't put
it off even one more day... I went through my wardrobe and bagged up
everything that doesn't fit me right now. I've gained a lot of
weight because of cancer meds and steroids and I've never been
inclined toward a baggy wardrobe, so a lot of my clothes no longer
fit. The additional weight and water retention and normal
arthritis are causing me a lot of joint pain, and I'm not exactly
little miss sunshine when I take steroids, so it's truly been
frustrating me when I'm in a hurry to get somewhere and I waste an
hour struggling to get into things that don't fit me... by the time
I leave the house I'm a sore, sweaty, swearing mess.
So... I divided everything into groups: things
that fit me now, things that fit me now but are so amazingly ugly or
unflattering that I'm never going to wear them, things that would
fit me with a reasonable amount of alteration, things that don't fit
me but are adorable enough that I should save them until they do
fit, and things that don't fit me and aren't really worth hanging
onto right now. The ugly clothes and things that I didn't want
to hang onto will get donated to Goodwill, the cute things that
didn't fit got bagged up and stuck in my storage closet, the pile of
alteration got relegated to the sewing bins, and everything else got
put away in the closet, dressers, etc. I have a bunch of
shirts, two pairs of pants, two skirts, and a few hoodies and
I took my recycling back to the store and
walked the resulting ten dollars over to the Goodwill bins where
they charge for clothes by the pound, but unfortunately you can't
try anything on over there. I did pick up a couple more pairs
of pants and a few more shirts, though. I think I'll try that
again if my starving artist effort here ever brings in any money...
I have to admit I'm a bit disappointed that I haven't even made one
cent yet. I'll stick it out as long as I can, though... I'm
looking at seeing if some of the local shops will carry my art.